IVF Rounds 3
So since I last blogged we've been through two FET (Frozen Embryo Transfers)! These were our first experiences with frozen transfers as our first cycle and Casey's cycle were both fresh. I have to say cycling with a baby is a whole different ballgame. Lupron induced headaches and exhaustion, nausea from the progesterone in oil - all of that used to be combatted by taking it easy and napping and resting whenever I wanted. Now - with a very active toddler who needs his momma that's just not possible. But we made it work and we survived! We are currently on day 2 of our two week wait for our second round - longest 2 weeks ever! :)
Our first round we transferred one embryo on April 20th after 2 months of prep starting with birth control, then Lupron shots, then estrogen and progesterone therapy. This was our first cycle doing progesterone in oil injections and in case you don't know they are enormous needles that must go directly into the muscle right above your butt. They always scared the shit out of me to be frank and I definitely don't love them but they are not near as bad as I thought they would be. We have it down to a science - numbing cream and an extra hot heating pad for 5 minutes, brace myself on the countertop and bam - done before you know it. The worst is the soreness the few days following. Unfortunately 10 days later - we found out that this beautiful embryo decided not to stick around. As sad as we were - we still have to be Momma and Dada to Ceej and that's the most important priority in our lives. So we grieved and picked up the pieces and said "what's next?" Here are a few of my favorite pics from that day and a pic of our sweet little embryo.
Our first round we transferred one embryo on April 20th after 2 months of prep starting with birth control, then Lupron shots, then estrogen and progesterone therapy. This was our first cycle doing progesterone in oil injections and in case you don't know they are enormous needles that must go directly into the muscle right above your butt. They always scared the shit out of me to be frank and I definitely don't love them but they are not near as bad as I thought they would be. We have it down to a science - numbing cream and an extra hot heating pad for 5 minutes, brace myself on the countertop and bam - done before you know it. The worst is the soreness the few days following. Unfortunately 10 days later - we found out that this beautiful embryo decided not to stick around. As sad as we were - we still have to be Momma and Dada to Ceej and that's the most important priority in our lives. So we grieved and picked up the pieces and said "what's next?" Here are a few of my favorite pics from that day and a pic of our sweet little embryo.
Our first Projesterone in Oil injection!
My lucky socks! I've worn them for every transfer and even when Ceej was born!
Our sweet little embryo
Post transfer smiles!
No matter what - having a transfer be unsuccessful is heartbreaking. To us those embryos are babies and we've now lost 2 of them. Personally - and this is just the way we feel - we in no way compare it to the loss of a child or a miscarriage - not even close. But especially since having Ceej - and looking back at the picture and realizing he was a sweet tiny little embryo like that - we do wonder what they would have been like - who they would have been - would they have been boys or girls? doctors? lawyers? veterinarians? So many what ifs run through our minds about those sweet little babes. Having Casey and having the privilege to have carried him in my belly makes the blow just a little easier because if we are never blessed with another child at least we have our miracle and we were able to experience 9 amazing months of pregnancy.
XOXO
K
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